HER

i thought i would be prepared. i knew it would come some day.

i thought it would be a while from now-

i thought i would have time to discuss the answer with

honey.

not the little one, not the hairy one.

the one with whom i discuss all answers.

i didn't think the question would come today.

this morning.

with honey 400 miles away-

the clock screaming that we were late-

me sitting on the (closed) potty waiting to do her hair-

i didn't think it would come as i was hollering to hurry up-

i didn't think i would hear it from the next room

as she was feeding her hamsters.

"mom-

bugsy, i am not going to answer you until you get in here-

but mom, did you see her-

bugs, i told you, i am not coming into see them- we have to go- come on-

but mom- did you see HER??

bugs, get in here. see who?

my birthmother. did you see her?"...

to be continued